Monthly Archives: October 2010

I acknowledge you Adrienne Fodor.

Blessing and acknowledgment for today: ADRIENNE FODOR! Truly Gifted Intuitive reader/clairvoyant! I am soooo grateful to have you in the community. To know you. To feel your love. To experience your gifts. Pure love! Mmmm! Thank you so much! You are a gift. Thank you for sharing your medicine!

What I am present to:

my gifts.
who I am and who I am becoming
trust in intuition and insight.
interests to follow. my path.
more strength and will.



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Practice makes perfect, "i’mperfect" that is.


My practice has been looking different since starting Kundalini Yoga teacher training. I have been getting up at 6 a.m. most mornings. I have been taking cold showers since Monday. I have done nahbia kriya every morning since Friday. I meditate for a least 11 minutes a day.

I acknowledge the strides I have been taking.
I am proud of the power to commit, to notice my tendencies more and to break them through practice.
I forgive myself and I feel proud to listen.
I notice myself being grounded. I feel more rooted in the earth when I walk and I feel the difference in my energy,
I am super calm.
I am generally very happy and purposeful.
When I have doubts and insecurities I realize it is just a way of “being” that is not who I am.
I notice fears more quickly. I contemplate, I do my best. I recommit.
I love myself a great deal and so I take little personally.

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The Aquarian Age

While the Age of the Pisces was about gaining access to information, the new age, the Age of Aquarius is about “being.” It is about action and awakening. Yogi Bhajan describes it as a period without secrets. When information becomes based in real value, which comes from “truth embodied in practical actions and internal caliber.” I believe what he is saying is truth which comes from wisdom, internal knowing, intuition and emotional, felt responses.

How exciting then it is to integrate this knowing into our “being.” To merge the God and the Goddess, Yin with Yang, intellect with feeling into character, the essence of who we are and how we show up in the world. The Age of Aquarius calls for a time of greater consciousness, although it is predicted that there will be a great deal of suffering, chaos, and insanity. It is up to us to awaken and connect to our own divinity, trust and believe in prayer and intentions, and maintain our health through flexibility and strength.

The 5 Sutras for the Aquarian Age:

1: Recognize that the other person is you.
2: There is a way through every block.
3: When the time is on you, start, and the pressure will be off.
4: Understand through compassion or you will misunderstand the times.
5: Vibrate the Cosmos, the Cosmos shall clear the path

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Break down: Negative Emotion: fear, mental health, and the chakra system

Jator. Back in my life. So grateful! I contemplated the stories in the book, “Illusions.” I remembered a parable that reminded me that

when we commit to a “being,” so then we become!

This is an exciting realization and put into the context of “my” life, I see many things. I’ve quickly been noticing that within me there is fear, rattling in my body like a snake trapped in a cave. I have been afraid of negative energy. I have been courting the negative idea that there is such a thing as “evil.” I have been afraid of judgement. I have been judging myself. I have been doubting myself.

So it is an amazing revelation that when I put energy into something, the energy I get will follow according to how much I gave. This brings to mind that negative emotions will feed negative emotions by attracting more of that energy, as so with positive emotions. Our emotions reflect ways of being, constructed through time. Negative emotions often reflect old patterned beliefs and stories- traumas and conditioning- held in our nervous system and bodies. In the context of vibration: negative emotions have a very low vibration and if not shifted but rather acted out, will attract energy such as fear and guilt. In trauma, I learn, that traumatized people are constantly re-enacting the same trauma, the same fear and are often unaware that they are doing so. With this said, we can say that guilt and fear perpetuate through re-enactment; when we are afraid and especially when we act out on our fears, we call our own fears to us. This is the law of karma. Additionally, it is ironic that the lowest vibration in the chakra system is #1, the root chakra, most associated with fear.

The lowest chakra is also connected to water. In Chinese Medicine, water is ruled by kidney. Coincidently, Kidney, when out of balance, is related to the emotion: fear. When our kidney meridean is in balance, on the other hand, we are more likely to act courageously and without judgment. Our kidneys are also where our great reserve of energy is stored. When we are in a constant state of fear, it is likely that our kidneys are effected and we will have issues processing life’s stresses and have fluctuating energy patterns and sleep difficulties.

The root chakra is also associated with our sense of security, which is greatly influenced by how we were treated between the ages of conception and 8. It is where much trauma and abuse live. If we are blocked in our root chakra by fear it will be more difficult to trust others and God. When we are unable to trust in life processes or in our connection to the divine source, it is likely that our health will deteriorate mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and physically.

Eastern cultures have used the chakra system for 1000s of years and is greatly associated with the science of kundalini energy. Our kundalini is often described as a serpent, resting with its tail in its mouth. When it awakens, which could be at any time, the kundalini energy vitalizes the chakras, which are constantly spinning vortices of energy that hold both positive and negative emotions, memories, and associations. The kundalini energy, when awakened, has the potential to lead one to a greater connection to themselves, God, and consciousness. When it is out of balance, however, it could lead to neurosis and other mental, emotional, spiritual dis-eases.

Looking at the chakra system and kundalini energy to understand mental, spiritual, and physical ailments is an exciting discovery that I hope others will embrace.

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Letting go

I am still processing a relationship that I feel I must let go of.
In it, I felt deep love, longing, compassion, fear, and sadness.
I discern that his ego is very strong and
I believe that he needs healing.
I was fighting fire with water.
Consciously, I want to heal him with unconditional love, because I really care about him.
Unconsciously, I wanted to heal family wounds.
I learned- people have to consciously want healing, which can be very hard work.
It is difficult to accept where I am limited but I do.
I trust that letting go of negativity is the best thing to do.
I am learning- how to approach mental and spiritual health issues.
I am learning- to notice and to let go without my ego wanting to dismiss, deny, or try to fit “what happened?” into a box.
I choose to accept and forgive what is.
I choose to stay open-hearted and receptive.
My faith is strong; love heals and healing is always possible.
I trust that this is a process I must need to go through.

There is death in letting go, yet there is new life to embrace.
Death breeds transformation.
I am excited, inspired, awe-struck, and filled with compassion and love.


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The Unity of One: Light and Dark

“The Supreme Critic on the errors of the past and the present, and the only prophet of that which must be, is that great nature in which we rest, as the earth lies in the soft arms of the atmosphere; that Unity, that Oversoul, within which every man’s particular being is contained and made one with all other; that common heart, of which all sincere conversation is the worship, to which all right action is submission; that overpowering reality which confutes our tricks and talents, and constrains every one to pass for what he is, and to speak from his character, and not from his tongue, and which evermore tends to pass into our thought and hand, and become wisdom, and virtue, and power and beauty. We live in succession, in division, in parts, and in particles. Meantime, within man is the soul of the whole; the wise silence; the universal beauty, to which every part and particle is related; the eternal ONE…A man is the facade of a temple wherin all wisdom and all good abide. What we commonly call man, the eating, drinking, planting, counting man, does not, as we know him, represent himself, but misrepresents himself. Him we do not respect, but the soul, whose organ he is, would he let it appear through his action, would make our knees bend. When it breathes through his intellect, it is genius; when it breathes through his will, it is virtue; when it flows through his affection, it is love.” -Ralph Waldo Emerson, Self Reliance and other Essays. “The Oversoul.”

How often do we misrepresent ourselves? How often do we speak from our tongues and not from our hearts? Do we act out of fear rather than love? Do we give other people the benefit of the doubt and love them, not for what they’ve accomplished, but for who they are? How often do we choose to forgive others and accept them, even when they do not respect us? How often do we choose to see our oneness, looking within rather than out? How often do we love ourselves?

The challenge is a practice and I am just another student, making mistakes and noticing when I fall. However, the opportunities to see love in every moment, to choose love, to acknowledge fear, is an intention that is about resonating with one. It is a commitment to see the goodness, despite the fear, the “bad” or seemingly “evil” that is, in reality, within all of us.

Setting intentions–>
Affirmations/Prayers to the Divine: God and Goddess:

Dear God and Goddess,
Release me of the conditions that create fear.
Guide me to removing the blocks of the illusion that I am separate.
Help me to clear my perception and see the love in all things.

I am God and Goddess both.
I am strength-receiving
I am committed to light and love.
I see and know that I am love.
I choose to water the seeds of love.
To love myself.
To love others.
To see the love in everything and everyone.
I forgive and accept myself and others.

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