Monthly Archives: December 2011

To confuse the body as real and spiritual awakening as not…

A new day comes and still there are lessons: circumstances and challenges; illusion to continuously detach myself from while remaining in the heart of the holy, so as not to confuse the body and focus on it at the cost of love.

To confuse the body as real and spiritual awakening as not, would be to perceive the untrue and create more illusion from which we are to awaken from. Therefore, the cleansing of the mind is necessary and the body, which acts as a vehicle is secondary to its healing…

Pay attention to the signs and the visions coming through the body, for the body is a vehicle and also is a messenger for how to act. The cleaner our perception, the more healed is the mind, and the clearer the message therefore.

Trust in your visions of light

We need not be validated by outside for what is the healing of our own mind. For whatever vision comes, call it in and let this vision be a guiding light. A messenger that comes, which comes in many forms, and so we know it to be true that when an angel from heaven appears, we can trust that it is so.

They may move us to tears,if we let them, cleansing our soul of the lies in which we were taught but aren’t real. They heal our perception of what is true and not true.

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A message from above: when 2 egos collide

A MESSAGE FROM ABOVE-WHEN TWO EGOS COLLIDE.

WHEN TWO STRONG EGOS COLLIDE OVER ONE, IT IS DIFFICULT TO CONVINCE THAT THE LAW OF LOVE IS THE SALVATION FOR WHICH THEY YEARN.

THEREFORE IT IS ONLY IS BEING LOVE, THAT IS THROUGH PRESENCE, CAN ONE INSPIRE ANOTHER TO AWAKEN DESPITE THE EGO’S CALL.

LOVE INDEED IS WHAT TRANSFORMS AND IS NEEDED FOR ANOTHER TO EXPERIENCE IN CRISIS.

FOR WHOSE LIGHT IS TOO DIM TO SEE, HOWEVER, THE EGO TAKES OVER AND CONVINCES THEM THAT LIGHT DOES NOT EXIST.AND THEREFORE THEY DO NOT HEAR NOR ANSWER.

TAKE HEED AND DO NOT LOSE ENERGY OVER WHAT IS NOT THERE BUT THE LOVE YOU CHOOSE TO SEE AND KNOW IS THERE. TAKE HEED AND DO NOT LOSE FAITH THAT THE ENERGY OF LOVE IS HEALING AND THAT OF FEAR IS NOT. WATCH WHEN YOU ARE AFRAID AND BE CAREFUL NOT TO REACT; FEAR ONLY CREATES MORE FEAR AND IT DOES NO GOOD FOR ONE IN CRISIS. TAKE HEED TO LOVE SELF SO THAT WHEN AWAKENING IS POSSIBLE, YOU ARE PRESENT TO SEE IT EXIST.. LET GO OF WHAT YOU THINK SHOULD BE YOUR RESPONSIBILITY AND MAKE YOURSELF NOT AT FAULT; IT IS YOUR RESPONSIBILITY ONLY TO LOVE..

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the obstacles at love

The only law we really need concern ourselves with is the law of love. Everything we do that is loving, with a loving intent, aligns with natural law and this love is rewarded to us in many forms and expressions. SOmetimes it does seem to be the case, as loving sometimes feels like pain for having done so. Fear, guilt and shame are our obstacles to love. An ego that is not aligned with love, feels bad and thinks it undeserving to receive love, so it sabbotages all attempts at giving and receiving love. This is why to be love is sometimes painful.

To align with the natural law of love is to embody it regardless of the circumstance and this can be very difficult. When someone is yelling at us, often we want to yell back. “Stop yelling at me! It’s not me, it’s you!” We project our own guilt and shame by making “other” wrong because we fear of the pain for having hurt someone else’s feelings; we don’t want to experience their judgment as it would make it more difficult for us to love ourselves.

When I withhold projecting my own guilt and shame, I get to experience the fear inside of me. I get to see that it is not them, but it is me, responsible for how I perceive what is coming at me. When I withdrawl projecting guilt and shame, I can see that I am afraid and I can also see that the person that is yelling at me is afraid too. Sometimes I need space to calm myself, to love myself, because when I am afraid, I am simply not loving myself. I can not love the person yelling at me if I am not loving myself, and if I am not feeling the pain that I caused myself or “other,” I can not love myself or other. So sometimes, I need space to love myself and to calm myself so that I can see clearly. This requires patience.

We want to be aware of the fear, guilt and shame inside of ourselves because only then can we realize that it is in not loving ourselves that is the greatest obstacle to love.

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Taking without asking

I now have a problem, another opportunity to stretch and see. I am faced with the projection of taking without asking. On one end, the mind of God has compassion and understands completely. On the other hand, my ego-ic self wants to withdrawl, justify, and defend. While I want to lash out in judgment, the mind of God says “Hold on!”

How does it feel?

I feel angry, sad, and disrespected. Quickly, the anger turns to sadness. At the same time, I understand; I am not too sad. I feel compassionate and vulnerable.

In my body, the pain resides in my heart. I feel vulnerable there because I want to keep it open.

So then I ask, how is this person a reflection of me and what do I have to learn?

Well certainly, I have done the same thing. In fact, when I feel that energy is being “taken” from me, I feel justified to take back. I am not committed to this cyclical defense however, because it only feeds guilt for me, I realize.

It is possibly the case that for some reason, this person feels justified to take from me. Perhaps I should be grateful? Yes. I am grateful. Yet, we have communicated agreements and this one is not being respected.

Are there any agreements that I am not respecting? I suppose the only thing I can do is ask and stay in communication because I do not believe that there are agreements that I am not respecting.

The Course in Miracles wisdom would say that it is a cry for love…

If it is a cry for love, there is something this person may be afraid of. This person may feel resentful and feeling alone. When I am crying for love, I am afraid. Usually, I am feeling alone.

Also, when I take from someone, I am afraid to ask. I am afraid to ask because I am ashamed to ask. Because I am ashamed to ask, I don’t and so I take and then I justify why I am right for doing so. When I justify why I am right because I take, I am really hiding my guilt. While this is going on, I am not present.

And so the cycle goes. However, when I am ashamed, I have the opportunity to communicate my shame or I swallow it…

When I communicate my shame, I usually feel better. However, in the past, I have also been shamed even more. For this reason, I sometimes choose not to communicate my shame.

Every moment is an opportunity to be honest, to come clean with my shame and guilt.
Every moment is an opportunity to right my relationship with God.
Every moment is an opportunity to communicate love, rather than fear.

If I am honest and communicate my shame, I am free.
When I continue to hide my shame, I am less free because I am not present to God.

What am I committed to?

I am committed to love and awakening. I am committed to God. Therefore, I see the only thing to do is communicate. While it is always scary, if I communicate, I am in right relationship with God and I can be happy about that, even when the person I am communicating with, might be defended.

This is a reminder not to shame when one is being honest, but to hold space and to offer an opportunity for One to awaken to God’s love. Even when the mistake keeps being made, be courageous to communicate lovingly.

Be open to making new agreements.

As Terces and Matthew Engelhart, the owners of Cafe Gratitude, would share- the 8 superpowers of community are:

1)Make a request
2)Acknowledge
3)Apologize.
4)Hold the seat of love in the storm of separation
5)Generate the will
6)Have integrity
7)Be transparent
8)Check-in

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Blocked by comparison

Is it not the case that when one is in a group of people with whom they admire and find inspiring, they often compare themselves against what they are not. Too often it is so that when one is in such admiration, they forget to see the mirror that they are in themselves and so choose the disempowering story, the dream of who they are not instead. This is a consequence of having not looked inside long enough to see and love the wounded child, all of that which prevented us from seeing the love that “I AM” in the first place.

When we look outside and start comparing what we admire to ourselves, we become disempowered, forgetting that we all have a gift. When we look inside, we develop our gifts. When we look outside, we give them away. No expression in the universe can match the creative expression of God inside ourselves. Because we look outside in comparison, we prevent ourselves from seeing this inner light and so we diminish it as a consequence. Doubt ensues and we forget; we become unconscious.

Therefore, be aware. For to compare renders the ego as driver, often in defense, out to diminish oneself or “other.” When all there is to see is the mirror we fail to see in ourselves, we give our power away when we start to judge.

Look inside for the wounded child that did not feel acknowledged and loved at a time when she needed. Look inside for the fear; as it is fear you must feel and let pass. Trust and have faith in the unique expression that is you and bless the mirrors that you see, for they represent the beauty and the wonder of the world, as do you. Be grateful that you see them and give them what they need. Give them your love and kind words. Look at the mirror of what they represent inside of you and take it as a sign that you too are on a unique path, with a special function that is yours, which God gave for you to fulfill.

Stop comparing and keep moving forward for to stay outside is to diminish your gifts and render them “useless.” To feel useless is to see a world that is “less than” and to keep them there in fear and out of truth. This is the suffering of the world for when we diminish our creative aspirations, our gifts, it is difficult to be present; we can not serve “others” when we are not loving ourselves. To move forward, in the direction of our creative aspiration, is to love and therefore see it and be it in the world.

This is the greatest gift we could give.

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Because I know.- a poem

Because I know…

When you cut me off, I want to curse at you and make you wrong.
And because I know, I do not react so callously.
Because I know, I get to see myself more in everything.

Sometimes, oh Lord, sometimes, my thoughts have a mind of its own and
it hurts me like a backlash..
And it feeds me guilt, shame and fear.
telling what is “wrong”
And because I know,
It is easier to hear your voice to my rescue.
That gentle, loving voice.
Offering perspective. wisdom.
Patience.
Because this brings me peace
I know
and I do not blame you.

Because I know,
when I am held in judgement and all I hear are lies about you
I can let go and I can hold space.
Because I know.

Because I know
when I make a mistake
And I do not listen to you out of fear…
I can forgive myself and move on more quickly
Because I know…

Because I know
I sometimes want to cry in ecstasy
that you love me unconditionally
and I am free to know
When I am withholding love,
I just need to love myself
as you would have me know…

Because I know.
I am grateful.
Because I know.

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